Cosmomorphic: beginings

Hello World. It's me. Christina. I am 1 week away from the last day of law school ever. 1 month 2 days away from Law school graduation. 3 months 12 days away from the California Bar Exam. I am about to enter a dark period of study that requires isolation, intense pressure and unending urges to procrastinate. This period of study is something that haunts every law student from day one. It's the period before the most important test of our lives. With the current pass rate so low, it's discouraging and horrifying. It's easy to get worked up and overwhelmed by the stress. I am a high stress person. I run on anxiety. But I can't run on fumes for 10 weeks.

That's where this blog comes in. And the things that go in to making the blog.

I need something to keep me focused. Something that I can turn to when the soul longs to run away. That something turns out to be baking. Whether it's sweet, chewy cookie-bars or savory cheesy bread, making pastries takes me out of the dark place. And after the baking is done, I get to eat it! Between you and me, I think the baking is more fun.

At the end of the 10 week bar prep, I will have a diary of foods inspired by the demons. I will write recipes, experiment with extracts, whip eggs senseless and create cookies. One bite of these cookies puts the eater back in their safe place. Close your eyes, inhale deeply of the heady aroma, and take a bite of reward. Go on, you deserve it. You've been studying for the past 14 hours.

These recipes will have all the bangs and whistles but none of the fuss. No fleur-de-sel from the lower Cyprus hills. This is not a time for elaborate cupcakes, doubled in size from icing. This is an attempt to solidify happy memories, and create new memories. My theory is that if someone practices a random act of kindness for a law student, it's less likely that student will become a heartless, soul sucking vampire. Cosmomorphism: being in perfect symbiosis with the environment.

Unfortunately for me, I yanked a filling out of a molar this afternoon. While eating a cookie! What horrifying irony. Is that the proper use of "irony"? Looks like current plans to eat will be delayed until I find a dentist who can put me out of my misery. I really dislike dentists. Maybe more so than the average person.